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耳机里头，不急不缓地流动着音乐，而窗外则是云淡风清，一派安宁。刚才在一望无际的晴天下，突降一场暴雨，雷声隆隆。而这之后，就没有一丝的痕迹留下。

Will you believe that, tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away? But something in our minds will always stay...

安静地坐着，听斯汀低沉的声音慢慢地讲述着生命中一些无可奈何的情绪，一些我们自己不能掌握的点点滴滴。

昨夜，电视里播着ER，Dr. Greene 即将离世前给他的同事们的一封信。

Dear ER gang,

So, here I am, out on the beach at 5:30 in the evening. Elizabeth is sitting with me, drinking juice, but I'm all about the Mai Tai's. The sun's going down. Rachel is dipping Ella's toes in the ocean, as they head off on a quest for the perfect seashell. And weirdly enough, I find myself thinking, you know what would make this moment complete? Some jogger dropping to the sand short of breath, so I can swoop in with a piece of bamboo to perform a nice, clean intubation, fix the guy up and send him off with a good, simple dispo. Which I guess is my way of saying that I miss you all and that dingy place. Lots of times I thought I should have chosen a different career, or gone into private practice - something easier, less grinding, more lucrative, but since I've been gone, I realize that outside of what I'm doing right now - sitting on this beach with my family - staying at County all those years, doing what we do on a daily basis, was the best choice I ever made. I know what you're thinking, but trust me, it's not so hard to appreciate once it's over. As much as part of me would like to believe that the ER can't go on without me, a smarter part realizes that you're an incredible group of doctors and nurses, who approach every day with such skill, compassion
and thoroughness that, when it comes to patient care, I know my absence will hardly be felt. As for friendship and camaraderie - well, that's another
matter. In order to leave, I had to go the way I did, but I wouldn't want any of you to think that that meant I didn't value each of you and the years
that we worked together. Or that I didn't have things of a more personal nature to say. Most of you, I think, have an idea of what those things might be without me writing them down, but still...
Ella is laughing and waving for me; Rachel's found her shell...

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Mark died this morning at 6:04 am. The sun was rising. His favorite time of day. I sent this on so that you might know he was thinking of you all and that he appreciated knowing you would remember him well.

Elizabeth Corday
______________________

掉了眼泪，为那个一向calm, steady and gentle的医生。看着ER所有人在镇定面容下颤抖的手指和失控的情绪，看着失掉他们至爱朋友的那些痛楚的抽泣。想着生命是如此脆弱，脆弱的不堪一击。

假如生命里多一些提早知道，假如生命里多一些“我要对他(她)好一点”，假如生命里少些无法预见的悲哀，假如生命可以按部就班的进行下去。

其实只是若有所思，其实，只是这样而已。

For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are...

当真如此。
___________________

P.S. ER是美国一部描述急诊室生活的系列剧,非常感人。此处提到的Dr. Mark Greene 是急诊室负责人,为人正直,朴实而善良,后因脑部肿瘤去世,年仅36岁。

上文引用的信是马克临终前写给他的同事们，在他第二天凌晨去世后由妻子伊丽莎白发出。

同事Abby 对 Carter说：

10年内，你知道他救过多少人？
也许几千人。
可我们却在最后关头无法救他。
是，我开始想他了。

于是忍不住想起，有时，生命竟如此脆弱。ER

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